Rainy day

Today is an extremely rainy, dreary, fall day.  Which is kind of fitting since I'm sick.  But, I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon and hopefully I'll get some meds and will be on the road to recovery!  It's a good thing because we have a busy weekend with Aiden's Halloween parade tomorrow at school, a birthday party this weekend, and Halloween on Monday!!

Things around here have been a bit crazy.  Last week was really hard.  It just felt like one thing after the other- an unexpected bilirubin test for Brady (he's fine!), a broken oven, phone calls with the insurance company due to annoying issues, and here's the icing on the cake...Aiden knocked his front tooth out at church on Sunday (our first week back).  Sometimes, you just have to laugh instead of cry.  But, I'm not gonna lie, I've been shedding lots of tears recently.

This is a difficult time.  Adjusting to life with a newborn is hard, but when I look at this face, my heart just melts.  This is a hard time, but he's totally worth it.

Every time I want to complain about getting up in the middle of the night to nurse, or am frustrated that I can't finish a load of laundry because Brady is cranky...I remind myself of being 10 weeks pregnant and having a scare that we thought we had miscarried.

Babies are miracles and it's easy to forget just how much of a gift children are, when they're screaming or you're getting no sleep, or your toddler is driving you crazy.

I know this is a season right now, and I'm learning that I just need to take it day by day.  That's hard for me- I like to plan, I like things to be in order.

I keep joking with Rob that I will get sleep and do things for myself when the kids are in college.  Of course I know that it will happen before then, but my point is that even though this time is hard right now, its ok.  I'm doing my best not to feel overwhelmed by all the things I can't get done but want to.

So today I am sitting on the sofa, snuggling my baby and ignoring by to-do list.