I'm still here, alive and well- not totally well, but surviving. The c-section recovery was not bad at all- and life would be back to normal if I didn't have unbearable back pain. But, the good news is there is light at the end of the tunnel. It seems that I have something called Sacroilliac Joint Dysfunction, which is very common in pregnancy. I started PT this week and am already starting to feel beeter. Tomorrow at PT they're supposed to put my hip back in place and hopefully then I will have significant relief.
Having to live with this constant pain the past few weeks has really made me think about people who live every day of their lives with pain. I have friend who has Rheumatoid Arthritis, and I always think about her whenever I am dealing with pain ( like migraines). When you aren't living with pain, you take everything for granted. When I am feeling well, I don't ever really think about how lucky I am to be able to get myself dressed quickly, or get down on the floor and play with my son. I've had a hard time these past few weeks, feeling like a failure as a mother, and wife. It takes me at least twice as long, if not longer to do things, like getting dressed, or walking down the stairs. I am so thankful that it seems like this is not somehting I will have to deal with long-term, but I know there are a lot of moms out there who are dealing with constant pain.
So, I haven't had much time to take cute pictures of my boys...I hate pictureless posts, so I will post this one, taken by the professional photographer at the hospital. I love how Aiden is looking at Brady.
Aiden's had lots of grandparent time the past couple weeks. We are so blessed to live close to our parents who love helping us and enjoy lots of time with Aiden. Aiden's also thoroughly been enjoying school, and he even tells us about what he's learning and who is friend's are.
Brady is a typical newborn...likes to eat every few hours, sleeps a lot. But, he is starting to become more aware and more awake. I've been trying to get him to smile, and when I talk to him, Aiden likes to inform me that Brady is a baby and he can't talk. I try to encourage Aiden that just because Brady can't talk, doesn't mean we shouldn't talk to him.
Rob is away for a few days for a guy's weekend with friends from college. I am so glad that he is doing this, even though it is a hard time at home right now (again, thankful for family close by to help). Rob rarely takes time for himself, and he works very hard both at home and at work. He more than deserves this time with his friends and I am thankful that it worked out for him to be able to do this. But, I do miss him terribly.
So, that's where I'm at...life would be easier if I didn't have this pain, but I do, so I am taking one day at a time, and doing what I can.